It’s no surprise that in that last year I’ve been struggling to fall asleep at night. With all the transitions that have been happening lately, it’s hard to quiet my mind and trust that all things will happen when they are to happen. The bible says that “He has made everything beautiful in its time” according to Ecc. 3:11, and I’m starting to realize the waiting period is worthwhile.
At this stage in my life, I’ve recently started two new jobs; one is full-time and the other is a casual position. I knew that by taking on two separate jobs, there would be obstacles I’d have to overcome. However, I truly think that the Lord has been teaching me how to deal with these challenges, and in that has been a tremendous amount of freedom from certain fears.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Notice the word all. I can do all things He has given me to do, even when I’m running off 4 hours of sleep. I can do all things He wants me to accomplish each day, even when I feel overwhelmed. I can do all things He asks of me because it is Christ who gives me the strength I need.
I think sometimes we forget to acknowledge where our strength actually comes from. We think our strength comes from ourselves, even though we can do nothing apart from the Lord. On the wearisome days, I’m reminded of the strength I’ve been supplied with despite my lack of energy. “He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength.” (Isaiah 40:29).
I can testify that God’s power has sustained me on days where I desperately needed strength to do His will. An example would be on the day I was scheduled to have an interview on 100 Huntley Street; to share my testimony of God’s faithfulness in my life. I was so excited days leading up to interview, however, I couldn’t seem to fall asleep the night beforehand. When I woke up that morning, I was surviving off of three hours of sleep. My worry turned into restlessness, and my restlessness turned into little energy, and when I have no energy I begin to see these from a negative point of view. Despite all of these things, I managed to get through the interview without any issues. In fact, I felt more alert and awakened during the interview because I knew it wasn’t my strength I was relying on, it was the Lord’s.
I’m beginning to see more of His sovereignty and power as each day passes by. Even though there may be challenging situations that lie ahead for us, we can draw near to Him and He will draw near to us (James 4:8).
You can watch the interview on 100 Huntley Street by clicking here:
Here is a worship song that is new to me, and I’m in love with its lyrics. “Here I have no need, I am truly free, everything as it should be.”