As I laid awake until 1:00 A.M this morning, I couldn’t help but ponder about my future.
“God, I know you’re good and promise me a hope and a future, but I can’t help but think about what lies ahead.”
My thoughts swirled inside my mind until finally, I broke down and started to cry. I cried out to the Lord in desperation because I knew that He would hear me and comfort me.
For some reason, I have had many sleepless nights in the past year or so. I can’t quite figure out why I’m unable to rest but I do know that God would not allow these sleepless nights if they weren’t meant to teach me something.
I am learning that God wants me to cast all of my worries upon Him (1 Peter 5:7) before I lay down to rest. Although I have made it a habit of praying before bed, I have failed to give over some of the things I am holding onto.
I am holding on to hopes and dreams I want to come to pass, but I haven’t fully surrendered these to the Lord or asked Him for His input. Instead, I’ve been telling the Lord what I would like to happen and asking for God to “make it happen.” How foolish of me to try and tell the Creator of the universe what I need, when, in fact, He holds all of the wisdom and knowledge and answers to this life.
I have tried to figure out why certain things I’ve been praying about haven’t turned out the way I had hoped for, but then I am reminded about a specific verse that I’ve been clinging to for peace: Proverbs 3:5-6.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
The Lord has been faithful and has blessed me beyond measure, and sometimes when I feel like this, I begin to realize I’ve been looking at life through an ungrateful lens. I want to give thanks to Him always for what He’s done, but sometimes, this world can leave us feeling empty and deprived of the things we “think we need” at the time when in retrospect it isn’t what we need at this time. We can continue to pray for God to bring something to pass, but in His timing, He will bring it to pass when or if it is necessary. I decided to write this blog tonight because I’ve been feeling discouraged about certain things, but I also want to remind others that with God, anything is possible.
But dear Christian,
Never cease to pray because He hears you and is very interested in every part of your life.
Be truly glad, there is wonderful joy ahead.
-1 Peter 1:6
Never will I leave you, nor will I forsake you.