In June of 2015, a significant event happened in my life. It was when I got baptized, and decided to give my life to Christ.
My friends and family asked me, “Why did you get baptized again?” “Haven’t you been already been baptized as baby?”
Indeed, I was baptized as a baby. It was the “norm” for babies to get baptized. Perhaps, so that the parents would be reassured their child will grow up to be a “good person”.
However, as I grew up and entered into my teenage years, I wasn’t exactly what you would call “the perfect child”.
There were a lot of things I said and did as a teenager that I am not proud of. From time to time, I would lie to my parents about where I was and what I was doing. There were moments where I would sacrifice my moral principles just so that I would “fit in” with the crowd.
My rebellious stages had contributed to the way I viewed myself as a person. I started to believe that whenever something “bad” or negative happened in my life, it was because of something I did wrong as a teenager.
I was convinced that I deserved to feel guilty, upset, and hopeless as a result of what I had done in my past.
I started to “punish” myself, in the form of restricting how much food I would eat each day, and became very strict in my diet. “I’ve hurt someones feelings, therefore I don’t deserve to eat” or “I messed up on something at work, therefore I don’t deserve to have a snack.”
Simple justifications about why I do, or don’t deserve something based on my past and performance. “I need to prove to myself and to others that I’m a good person…”
Somewhere down the line, I had believed a lie about who I was and why I was put on this earth, which caused me to live in sin.
I knew deep down I needed something real, something tangible. I knew I needed to be saved.
And because of this knowing, I had asked God to forgive me of my sin and asked Him to come into my life and make me new.
The baptism that took place in 2015 was not my salvation. It was a symbolic event to share with others that I have decided to give my life to Christ.
For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast. Ephesians 2:8-9
Thank God, I am no longer that same person. As a child of God, I am a new creation in Christ Jesus (2 Corinthians 5:17)
As a fairly new believer, I am so amazed with how much of a desire God has placed on my heart to want to know Him more.
He has enabled me to become more interested in reading my bible, in fact, I often crave reading it! It is my favourite book of all time because it helps me to know God more. It allows me to seek Truth, wisdom, and guidance on any situation in life. It contains so many wonderful stories of God’s love, mercy, and forgiveness.
And want to know the best part? I know where I’m going when this life is over. Praise the Lord!
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11