Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
The world places such high demands on us humans.
Do better. Be better. Work harder.
And with all of these demands, come insecurities about ourselves and who we are.
For myself, there are several things that make me feel more, such as: getting high marks, getting a good night’s rest, eating properly and exercising.
All of which are good, but are they enough?
Are they enough to save me from the highways and bi-ways of life? Are they enough to make me feel loved and ultimately feel secure?
I was in desperate need of a place to stay this week due to having exams, and my two wonderful friends had allowed me to stay at their house. They provided me with meals and a warm bed to sleep in, and made sure I was in good care. I was being looked after by not only my these two friends, but God who made it all possible.
However, my friends live with other tenants and sometimes it can get a bit noisy. I’m a very light sleeper, and the slightest bit of noise can really affect the way I fall asleep. So there I was, laying in bed, over-thinking the amount of sleep I would be losing and how it would mess up my plans for the next day. I’m very thankful to be in school, but sometimes it’s hard to keep up with all the studying and exams. It’s even harder to catch up on the amount of lost sleep.
But the Spirit says I need to trust in Him, as He knows my every weakness. If I could just trust the Lord with what He’s doing in me, then the journey would seem so much more enjoyable. However, rather than choosing to trust God, I made the mistake of trusting in myself and my own “securities”.
It got to the point where I was being so ungrateful in my thinking and it affected the way I was acting around others. I was bothered by this negative attitude that I had formed because I know that it hurts God to see me with an ungrateful attitude and heart. I knew I needed to pray, to ask God to forgive me for being so negative and ungrateful, and to turn away from acting foolish.
Trust in Him,
He will make your paths straight.
As I was praying, I realized that God never intended for us to walk through this life miserably, lost, and angry about life. He was us to give thanks in everything, even if that means feeling insecure for a moment, because He hold’s us safe and secure in His arms.
Throughout my Christian walk, I’ve learned that God wants us to see challenges as opportunities to grow closer to Him and depend on His strength more and more.