My friend Sarah and I often joke about how early I go to bed each night and wake up in the morning. “You’re such an old folk at heart Sara” , she says to me, as I tell her it’s getting past my bed time…at 9:00 p.m.
I truly look forward to a good nights rest, and when I know that I’m not getting an 8-hour sleep…I panic a little. It’s that security of knowing I’ll have a ‘good day’ when I get a restful sleep. However, something a little different happened today. First, let’s rewind back to last night.
Friday night at 9:00 p.m. I was in my PJ’s, just getting ready for bed. I was reading my bible and my eyes began to get really heavy.
I turned off my lamp and shut things down for the night. I laid awake for an hour just thinking, and thinking. Thoughts about the future, thoughts about what I was going to do tomorrow.
The thoughts kept rolling in, and finally I became frustrated that I was up later than I’d hoped. My plan to get an 8-hour sleep, quickly turned into a 6-hour sleep, which finally ended in a 5-hour sleep.
I cried out at 1 a.m. “Lord, please, help me to fall asleep! I don’t understand why I can’t sleep, but I’m praying that you would calm my mind and help to enter Your rest!”
By 1:30 a.m. I was asleep. But then, my body naturally wakes itself up at 6:30.
So I had a choice to make at that very hour. One choice was to sleep in a little longer, and settle with a 6-hour rest. Another choice was to sleep in extra long until I get the full 8-hour sleep I anticipated. My final choice, which was my best choice, was to face the day with a thankful heart.
I got up out of bed, wiped those tired eyes, and faced the day with great expectancy. Expectant that God was going to help me have a good day.
I was about half way down the street when I just heard all of these lies pop into my head. ‘You’re not going to have a good day, don’t kid yourself’ ‘You should have just slept in longer, you would have been able to accomplish more.’
I was trying so hard to dodge these ‘negative bullets’ the enemy was trying to boggle my mind with.
I quick phoned my mom and told her how I wasn’t going to have a good day. She reminded me of some basic truths, and said I was going to have a good day. She told me to think of all the things to thank God for. Then she handed the phone off to Ben, and he told me to rely on God to help me.
In a sense, they were saying what God was trying to tell me the moment I woke up this morning.
He says “Fear not, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am Your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
And so, from this, I tried adopting this attitude of thankfulness.
Thank You Jesus, for allowing me to get some rest last night. Yeah, it may not have been the full 8-hours I’d hoped for, but I’m becoming increasingly aware that You want me to rely on You for absolutely everything little thing this life has to offer. And yes, while I continue to talk about my desires and my needs, I have to remind myself that this life isn’t about me, but rather it’s about glorifying You.
I started to see the blessings unfold. What I thought was going to be a terrible day, turned out to be a wonderful day.
I had walked to the grocery store to pick up a few items, and then had planned to walk to a friends house to have lunch. I sent her a quick message asking if it was okay that I come over a bit early, and she offered to pick me up from the grocery store.
We spent the rest of the morning running some errands and I was able to spend time with her two little children who are adoooorable. Then, we headed back to her house where she made us both a nice lunch.
The evening portion of the day was spent doing a take home test with my friend Sarah. We enjoy doing our homework together, it’s always full of laughter and fun. Then, Sarah made us homemade mini pizzas which was so yummy, and so easy to make!
Throughout our lives, we can see how He blesses us beyond what we could ever imagine. But if you just stop and truly thank God for every little thing that happens, they actually become so much bigger.
Thankful for the gift of salvation. Thankful for good friends. Thankful for an education. Thankful for just so much.
Ephesians 2:8 says
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God
There is so much GOOD to share about GOD.
And by the way, I would trade a 5-hour sleep for 8-hour sleep any day now…Thank You Lord!