It’s been a while since I’ve written my last blog post. I think for a little while, I just needed time to examine myself and see what needed to change. I began to see a pattern in my writing. I would write about how I am upset with myself, but then ending off in how I would pray, hope, and trust that God would bring me out of this.
“Mom, why am I still struggling with food?” I would cry out in frustration. In those times, I would anticipate God’s miraculous healing, so that I would no longer cry about the same thing over and over.
What I find so fascinating is that God allows such things to happen to protect us. He uses various trials to show us that all we need is Him.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” If this is my reality, why do I present self-destructive behaviors in my own life?
Without evening realizing, my heart can be stuck in self-seeking mode. Self-image, self-gratification, self-indulgence, all for what? If this is the way I’m choosing to go, I’ll never win the battle with food. Jesus is the only way, truth and life.
Of course, God can do unthinkable. We need to remember that obedience is key in order to allow Him to perform such wonderful works in our lives. Sure we are prone to making mistakes along the way, but if God were to examine my heart right here, right now, what we He see I wonder?
Therefore if there is any consolation in Christ, if any comfort of love, if any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and mercy, 2 fulfill my joy by being like-minded, having the same love, being of one accord, of one mind. 3 Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. 4 Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others.