Today was just so lovely. I was blessed to have been able to share a visit from my parent’s who drove almost 3 hours to see me. I was also very fortunate to have been able to visit my former pastor and his wife who are such beautiful, kind-hearted people to be around. I was able to witness two believers of Christ get baptized as it reminded me of when my mom and I made that decision 2-years ago to give our life to Christ and become baptized. I was able to see cousins of ours who I haven’t seen in a while and rode on their ATV which was a lot of fun. As my family and I drove from place to place, I wondered to myself as I stared out the backseat window Can everyday be like Sunday?
I’m talking from the very start of the day, waking up and knowing that this is the day of the Lord. I want to feel His presence everywhere that I go, and be able to identify what He’s trying to teach me in each encounter I have.
Each and every encounter, this includes eating.
At times where I’m having breakfast, when I just want to focus on Him. A voice pops into my head that says “use the wisdom that God gives you and choose wisely what to eat. Make sure it’s nothing that will make you “fat” because then you would no longer be beautiful. You must follow the rules that “thin people” do when they eat because they clearly know how eat to perfection. If you chose not to eat something that a “thin” person would eat, you’re setting yourself up to become “fat” which means no beauty or love for you.”
So now I’m faced with more questions, Will this make me gain weight? Am I over-doing it? Then I begin wondering if I’ll have lunch or supper because if I have to much for breakfast then that’s it, i’m done for the day.
It’s an never-ending cycle of thoughts that go on in my mind until I finally say enough.
I have been praying that God would give me the wisdom and discernment I need when it comes to the thoughts I have towards the food I eat. I’ve had such a twisted view on food for years that my brain atomically assumes that food must be thought about very carefully and that whatever I eat determines who I am.
However, the Lord has revealed something to me today that I just can’t shake. It’s very beautiful. It’s something a friend of mine, Cassie Wolfe, had said to me weeks ago and it never fully clicked until now.
Zechariah 3 says “And he shewed me Joshua the high priest standing before the angel of the LORD, and Satan standing at his right hand to resist him. (Here is the high priest.) And the LORD said unto Satan, The LORD rebuke thee, O Satan; even the LORD that hath chosen Jerusalem rebuke thee: is not this a brand plucked out of the fire? Now Joshua was clothed with filthy garments, and stood before the angel.”
While Joshua was clothed in filthy garments, Jesus Christ was Joshua’s High Priest. Do you see? Joshua may have been representing Israel but Jesus represented Joshua, clothing him in His righteousness.
This is so wonderful because we don’t need to strive to become perfect in the food we eat because Jesus is perfect, and if He lives within our hearts and calls us by our name…then we are made perfect in HIM, not the food we eat. Not even the size we wear. No, nothing to do with our physical body, but our Spirit that lives inside of us.
But wait, there’s more!
“Now Joshua was clothed with filthy garments, and stood before the angel. And he answered and spake unto those that stood before him, saying, Take away the filthy garments from him. And unto him he said, Behold, I have caused thine iniquity to pass from thee, and I will clothe thee with change of raiment. And I said, Let them set a fair mitre upon his head. So they set a fair mitre upon his head, and clothed him with garments. And the angel of the LORD stood by.”
Although Joshua was accused by the devil, he had an advocate with the Father. We have the same advocate as Joshua, and His name is Jesus Christ. So if Jesus is our advocate, then what do we know about ourselves when we learn that Jesus speaks for us?
We are forgiven, justified, and declared righteous. All our debt of sin has been paid.
Learning this all in one night is absolutely astonishing to me. Bare we me a little bit, I am still trying to get to know God on a deeper level and have been using resources like my bible, the internet, Godly counsel, friends who are Christian. I’m still trying to find Truth in every area of my life, because I know that He who has began a good work in me shall complete it (Phillipians 1:6)
Knowing that He is our righteousness, I am coming to this conclusion. That we have no righteousness of our own. We can’t find it anything except in the Lord.
The problem we face is this: the devil’s whole plot is to attack us in our hearts and conscience. Those feelings I have when it comes to food like “Don’t eat this, if you do, you’ll gain weight or gaining weight means you’re unworthy God’s love” are not “warning signs” from God, their flat out lies that the enemy speaks because he knows I have believed these lies all my life, beginning in my childhood. Again, no matter what size you are or food you eat does not determine your righteousness except for God, who has fearfully and wonderfully made you who you are on purpose.
And while these accusations continuously come at us, we actually end up shutting down. We lose our ability to think we are God’s children because now we have this false voice of the enemy saying that we aren’t as good enough as other Christians. At least that’s how I feel whenever I’m around other Christians. I atomically feel inadequate because of what I eat, or what my thoughts are towards eating.
But, learning that food does not determine my righteousness, I have no need to feel ashamed, guilty or inadequate.
I’m praying that this all makes sense, at least to some degree. I also am hoping that whatever you take from this message allows you to understand who you are in Christ. You are so loved, so precious, so unique.
Don’t allow any other voice tell you otherwise, because you’ll know that it’s just another lie.
Have a blessed week everyone,