“My chains are goneeeeee, I’ve been set freeeee, my God my saviour has ransomed me… And like a flood, His mercy rains…amazingggg loveeee…amazingggg grace”
What does freedom look like to you?
Let me rephrase that.
What does your freedom look like?
I must admit, I’ve been having so many thoughts that revolve around God’s promise of living freely in Christ. I’ve been craving this life of freedom once and for all. I know that I am in Christ, but I ask God multiple times how I can get in on this “free” life He offers to all who believe in Him.
And then something clicked.
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.” Galatians 5:1
There are grey areas in my life where I ask myself, am I truly freed from this struggle? For instance, I have battled an eating disorder since I was about 16 years old. Since then, I have considered myself a victim of an eating problem. “I am different, because I have an eating disorder. I will always struggle with this issue, so I may as well continue living in this mind-frame.”
If there is one thing God has shown me over the last few months is, I am not a victim of my circumstances. Yes, I have struggled with food in the past. Yes, I went from a healthy weight, to an unhealthy weight through self-starvation, and then back to a healthy weight by eating copious amounts of food while no one was watching me, then feeling thoughts of shame, guilt, embarrassment and even depression.
God has revealed to me something that I never could have thought of on my own. He said to me that I am free, I am no longer that same person who would starve herself or eat until she felt sick to her stomach. God says, I have given you this opportunity to recognize how much you need Me. Use those times in the past as a testimony of My goodness, and share it with others. Look at how I delivered you from what seemed like a difficult time, to a place where you can look back and say “wow God, you did this for me. You really helped me through those storms by using Your people, and Your word”.
I know that if God did not place the people in my life, and the experiences I went through at the time to help me get through those storms, I would not be as confident in Him as I am today.
What am I saying? I’m saying that while not too many things to us make sense, everything works together for the Lord and His plan for Your life. He is with you, He is right there with you!
And you see, He delights in everything we do. Even the small things. Yes, He cares about our future, and promises to give us a “good land, a land of brooks and water, of fountains and springs, that flow out of the valleys and hills” Yes, He promises us a land of barley, wheat, vines, fig trees, olive oil, pomegranates, and honey.”
God isn’t finished with you. Nor me. I told myself that I don’t deserve to eat food as a”regular person would” because I have “binged” on food too many times or eaten in secret. I tell myself that I don’t deserve food like my friends or family do because I think about food way too much. But God promises to deliver me from this. He promises that no matter how many times I “mess up” by “eating” it really isn’t messing up. He wants me to enjoy life, enjoy food, enjoy people, enjoy school, enjoy work, enjoy.
I can choose a life of freedom in Christ, or can choose to live in agreement with the devil. But which sounds more appealing? That is a no-brainer.
“Thanks be to God, that you who were once slaves of sin have become obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching to which you were committed, and, having been set free from sin, have become slaves of righteousness.” Romans 6:17-18