“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me” 2 Corinthians 12:9
Do you ever find yourself people watching?
I do this all the time. Whenever I’m out in public, and I believe I get this trait from my parents (who people watch on the daily). I just find it so interesting, watching people go about their lives. Some are very rushed, while others look like they have not a care in the world. It’s fascinating to see how human’s respond to their circumstances.
I think to myself, “I wonder what that person is thinking right now?” Is that person going through a tough time in their life, or are they quite pleased with how their life’s going.? I see an older adult and wonder, “what do they do for a living?” or see a child and think “man, it must be nice to be a kid.”
Despite my own curiosities about other human beings, I sense brokenness everyone that I see.Why do I see brokenness? Because no matter how perfect or imperfect a person appears on the inside, they have something going on in their life that I don’t know about. Something that’s deep down inside, that they wrestle back and forth with. Some are able to deal with it better than others, but it really isn’t about how they deal with it. What’s more important is, Who are they allowing to help them deal with it.
I’ve spoken to multiple therapist in my life who have made an incredible difference in the way I think. I know that God uses these people in their careers to help people (like me) who has struggles I can’t deal with on my own. After-all, I wasn’t created to know how to deal with things on my own. And neither were you.
You see, God knows every detail of our lives, and He created us to have a relationship with Him. We wouldn’t be able to deal with half the things we have going on if it weren’t for His love, His grace, His mercy.
No matter how much we think we know about a person, He know’s best. Why? Because He made us knowing full well we would need Jesus to save us from our pain. He knows the hurt, the pain, the struggle. I’m certain whoever see’s me on the outside wouldn’t be able to guess that I have an on-going battle with an enemy who tries to steal my joy. Especially in the area of eating.But God, who see’s me on the inside, know’s my every struggle and sent Jesus so that He would be able to restore life back into me who became spiritually dead.
There is something so amazing that I recently came to recognize, as I grow more intimately with my Father.
God has revealed something incredibly beautiful to me as of recent, and it’s beginning to unfold in the midst of my weakness’. He says to me “Sara, you believe that you’re worth less to me when you eat. You only think that you can experience my love to the fullest when you eat “perfectly” having no weakness’ when it comes to food. However, I say that my grace is enough for you. My power is made perfect in your weakness’.
The weaker I am, the stronger He is. However, this is not an excuse to keep telling myself I’ll never be free of this eating issue. In fact, it’s the one thing the enemy uses against me. He continuously tries to tell me that no matter how well my day goes, food will always be an issue for me.
I can “boast” during theses times because I know that while I’m experiencing my weaknesses, the power of Christ is working in my stronger than ever.
I am not a victim of my past, I am a new creation in Jesus’ name.