The Food Diary

Hello friends!

Today was a really good day. Why? Because I’m beginning to recognize what I truly enjoy doing, as well as what my body truly enjoys eating.

As most of my close friends and family know, I’ve had quite an experience with food and exercise over the last 4 years. Some days are full of joy, peacefulness, and contentment, while others are filled with frustration, tears, and guilt. All of which are associated around the fear of looking a certain way. By this I mean, the fear of gaining weight/looking different than how I do right now.

But today I had somethings put into perspective. Somethings which I could not accomplish on my own. These things that I’m talking about are things that I can find in several verses of the bible, all which pertain to food and body image.

The bible speaks about body image a lot. It is mentioned in 1 Corinthians 6:13

“Food is meant for the stomach and the stomach for food”

Now, I know this doesn’t say too much about “the body”, but a lot of the thoughts I have about my body are in many cases, relating to the food that I put into my body. Keeping in mind that 4 years ago, I was living off of less than 300 calories a day. I’m not entirely sure how I was able to manage getting up, working out, going to school, and working out again, but let me tell you, I was frail and tired all. the. time.

So today I challenged myself. Rather than thinking “I may as well eat the minimum required amount of calories my body needs today” I said “I’m going to eat MORE than what my minimum intake of calories is, so that I won’t have a limited supply energy, but rather a sufficient amount of energy that will last me throughout all of today’s tasks.

And let me tell you, doing that is not easy for me. Knowing deep down that I could potentially survive off of 300 or less calories a day is so ridiculous, yet so tempting. The enemy will try to enter my thought process and tell me every single reason as to why I shouldn’t be eating what a “normal” person eats, he says that I need to be fit and skinny. That I must be a slim, trim, jim, and I must INTENTIONALLY eat less than what a normal amount order to be “happy” with myself.

I’m sorry but, true happiness in any form doesn’t come from self-deprivation. It only leads to destruction. Exactly what the enemy’s goal is.

So, where am I going with this? Well first, I want to encourage you to stop listening to any kind of voices you hear that say you must not eat this or that. If you know someone who only eats veggies and protein, or know someone who only eats gluten-free pasta, or know someone who eats 6 or7 times a day, don’t WORRY about THEM. They are doing what works for them. If you want something, please, please, allow yourself to have it. If you don’t want it, don’t have it. Don’t question it. Don’t overthink it. If you’re body is telling you, I would like this, than be kind to yourself and nourish your body with it’s needs. I am speaking from experience, that self-deprivation can actually be the result of comparing your diet to other’s.

Lastly, I would like to close off with this bible verse and encourage you to pray about anything you’re dealing with, whether it be fear or anxiety around food, or maybe something totally unrelated. I encourage you to write out how your feeling, create a diary of your thoughts. It can make a huge impact on the way you’re seeing yourself, with much more of a positive mind-frame.

Do all things without grumbling or questioning, that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast to the word of life, so that in the day of Christ I may be proud that I did not run in vain or labor in vain.  Philippians 2:14-16

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