Things about me:
1. I love caring for others.
Ever since I was a little girl, I have always been a best friend to somebody. I love when someone I care about is able to trust me and come to me with any of their problems that I can do my absolute best to help them with, I’m very loyal and protective towards people who I consider my best friends, or family members.
2. I love happy
I don’t know if that makes sense to you, but to me happy means anything that can make me smile. I love funny people, comedy movies, sunshine and warm weather, reading a good book, puppy dogs, church, school, waking up bright and early, colourful clothing, adventures, cool designs, planning for the future, the beach, watching fireworks, going for a bike ride or a hike, redecorating rooms, organizing anything, upbeat music, going to concerts, I love it all and it’s what makes me happy!
3. Education sounds appealing
I’ve always appreciated my education. I think that without school. I wouldn’t be where I am today because I would have learned anything on an intellectual level or about life. School is where 90% of my friendships were made, a place where I would spend most of my time and make lots of memories, a place where I found out what some of my strengths, weaknesses, and interests are. A place where I learned about deadlines and time management, basically a place where I could prepare myself enough before it’s time to grow up (which I’m still not ready for) but I am so blessed to of had a free education given my location, and am so very thankful to be able to continue throughout post-secondary. This year I’ll be taking a pre-health science course, which is a one year program designed to prepare me for a health related career, currentley I am leaning towards becoming a registered nurse because I love caring for others, but if I find out about a new career that appeals to me more my mind could possibly change 🙂
4. I love food
Food has always been such a big aspect of my life, choosing to ignore food would be impossible for me to do because it has always been such an incredible influence on my life.
This topic is also kind of personal, because food has been such a huge thing for me.
I grew up in a family where food was always passed around, and any type of gathering involved food.
As a child, I didn’t mind it at all, in fact I thought I was so incredibly lucky always be offered god food like pizza, dinner rolls, dq blizzards, KD, french toast, you name it! My family and friends knew how much I enjoyed all of the above, and it would be very rare for me to turn down any of them.
As I got older, I got a little chubbier around the waist, and for my age group I was a little bigger coompared to other kids. For the most part it didn’t bother me, and I accepted myself for what I looked like because happiness is what mattered to me the most. As time went on and I got older, I started learning about what foods are healthy and what foods are considered to be unhealthy, or “fattening” and started to think that I was eating too much ‘fattening” foods.
When I entered high-school, I was a pretty normal size for my age, but still had a little bit more fat on me than other girls in my grade, not to mention I didn’t play an sports or engaged in any regular physical activities. In grade 10, I started becoming more active with my friends, we would hit up the gym twice a week, and I would start going for short runs on the treadmill at home. Soon enough, I was started to become a regular runner, running every other day, for about 20-30 minutes. I would start running around the track at my school with one of my best friends Angela, and throughout the summer months of grade 10 we would wake up and run the track almost every morning. I was started noticing a difference in my body, I was slimming down quite a bit, and I was pretty happy with my results! I was going down in pant size, and I could see my stomach was also shrinking, I was becoming so proud of myself.
Once I entered grade 11, I was my lowest weight in all of high-school. Entering I was about 130 pounds, and by the time I was 15 years old, turning 16, I was about 110-112. Although I was pleased with this number, something told me that I could be lower, so I would continue to weight myself each day after my long runs and less of a caloric intake to see myself down to 100 pounds.
This is when my friend started noticing my weight loss, and this is where my nightmare began.
Another one of my good friends Sara, had recommended I go and get some professional help, perhaps from a guidance counselor at school. So I did, and it was helpful. I was then transferred over to a specialized agency specifically for girls with eating disorders. The day I went to this place, they did a full day assessment on me to see how severe my eating disorder was, and from the results they said I was a 5 minute run away from dying. My heart rate was at 45, and I barely had an bone density. They told me I was no longer allowed to run, walk home from school, continue my gym membership, and that I needed to eat enough to get back to about 135 pounds. This was probably the scariest and worst expediences of my life.
From this day, I still haven’t reach a full recovery, but I can tell you this.
I have made so much progress, and I’m still learning more and more about what normal eating and exercising is each day. In fact, I don’t even think there is a “normal” way of doing it because everyone’s body is different and has their own way of eating and can handle the amount of exercise their body needs, I can’t even believe I’m writing this blog right now because 5 months ago from today I wouldn’t have been able to sit this long to write it but boy does this every feel nice.
I am so happy to begin a new chapter in my life. Soon I’ll be heading off to college to fulfill my dreams of helping people for a life long career, what’s better than that?
Until next time,
“Let go of yesterday. Let today be a new beginning and be the best that you can, and you’ll get to where God wants you to be.”